forgiveness

Do not mistake my forgiveness as condoning of your asshat-ery. I do not forgive you for your sake. I forgive you for my own. If I do not forgive you, I give you power over my life; I become bitter; I dwell in constant angst over what you did/who you are; I let you dictate my life.

Do not think for one second that I have forgotten your asshat moves. Do not think that I have rebuilt the bridges that you not only burned but knocked over the support structures. Every single bridge rebuilding is on you. Every. Single. Brick. I have other bridges that are beautiful and strong and lead to people I actually care about. I will be tending those bridges.

I really could care less if you try and rebuild the bridge. I could care less, but I really don't care to. Again, to care less than I already do means that I send more energy (even if it's negative) to you. And I choose to not do that.

So, yes. I forgive you. But not because you deserve it. But because I do.