Yes. I'm doing a lot of meditation and trying to stay grounded yet still reaching to the sky.
There are days that I just want to curl up and stay in bed. There are days that I don't want to talk to anyone. There are days when I really wish I could just say, "Fuck it," and run away to...well, somewhere different.
I was thinking this morning and wondering why some people are able to not see their responsibility in ANY situation (not their fault, just the part they play in in) and why some people become impaired by stress/distress, and why some just can't seem to function no matter what. :)
I am working very hard at being mindful in all that I do. I am not doing as much exercise as I want/should, but...it is what it is. (I actually am getting to where I absolutely loath that statement! ha!)
I switched to a naturopathic doctor a couple of days ago, since I think I'm hitting periomenopause (or at least approaching it) and I want to be proactive to change and want to do more than just hormone replacement. She's going to start me on low-dose progesterone as a small start. She's checking adrenals to see what stress-levels my body is running on and she's willing to work with me on ways to anticipate and adjust my body's needs vs. always just messing with symptoms.
Blech. So. There's the semi-short version of me dealing with my own PTSD. Haha! (You should hear the LONG version...) :)
